In my previous blog posts, I have been sharing with you my challenges from #SelfLoveWeek with the beautiful Mel Wells. I feel at this stage, I probably need to back track slightly, and tell you a bit more about how it all came to light…

You might remember Mel from Hollyoaks a good few years back. She was (yet another) one of the McQueen’s clan. I vaguely remember her in from it as it was in my Hollyoaks watching prime, which I don’t often admit to in public, but this blogging malarkey makes me feel compelled to admit all sorts of things I wouldn’t dream of normally!

It turns out that Mel had a really bad relationship with food and her body (girls all over the country rejoice that they are not alone and are in fact, human!) She decided enough was enough and she transformed her relationship with both food and her body and is now a health coach, teaching her secret. She works (seemingly tirelessly) with women all over the world, helping them to escape their demons, and coaches them to truly love themselves.

Because I’ve been on a diet for all of my twenties and now into my thirties, I’ve managed to get myself in all sorts of groups on Facebook and follow “god knows what and who” on Instagram. Because I follow lots of other women in the same boat, I started to see an eye-catching book appear regularly. I knew I had to get my hands on it (I’m a professional dieter – of course I needed to be in on the next fad! Many of you will remember how swept up in Joe Wicks’ curly hair I was!)

Her book, “The Goddess Revolution” is my current read (soz Game of Thrones – you’ll just have to go on the back burner for a bit – this Goddess is looking out for her!) And it’s not quite what I bargained for. It’s not the next big thing in the diet world. Or maybe it is. It’s the next big “anti-diet” thing. YAY! At 31 and 9 days (not that I’m counting) I can finally be free of the diet! Could it be true? Well I’m only marginally way through, but everything so far has made so much sense! You’ll have to watch this space for the answer to that!

In addition to getting the book I started following Mel on all forms of social media, because that’s what you do, right? To my delight, I timed it JUST right. Mel’s #SelfLoveWeek was due to start on my 31st birthday.

I was excited to get going. How hard could it be? I’ve got a pretty good relationship with myself haven’t I? Yeah sure, there’s a bit of a blip at the moment and I’m hanging out in limbo land, but Me, Myself and I are cool right?

WRONG.

I enjoyed #SelfLoveWeek. In fact I adored it. I’m feeling so upbeat, and I love having something to focus on. I feel so positive to those around me too. My whole focus on people, particularly other women has shifted.

What I can’t lie about though, is that it has made it glaringly obvious, that my self-esteem and my self-love is nowhere close to where I thought it was, and where I want it to be.