10th June 2017. Somewhere between 9am and 10am on a dreary Saturday morning at Poppy’s play date, I thought I’d got some rain water stuck behind my contact lens.
I gave it a little wiggle. Nothing changed. Maybe I’d smeared some foundation on the lens in my haste to get ready. It wouldn’t be the first time.
That didn’t fix it either though.
A week later, 17th June, I was in hysterics, fearing the worst and desperately trying to get an appointment at Specsavers to see an optician. I still managed to squeeze in a selfie in between the tears of me modelling the “four eyes” look, as featured below!
That was what got me to here. On a Sunday evening exactly one year later, waiting to go into hospital in the morning.
This evening, I’m feeling nervous. I’m not scared but I’m well aware that I have chosen to have my immune system wiped out. I’m starting to feel the anticipation bubbling away inside of me.
Having reflected on the last year, what can I tell you?
I’m no longer scared of needles and blood tests, of which I know they’ll be many from tomorrow. I take CBD oil, which having grown up as VERY anti-drug was something I never thought I’d do. I blog. I put myself first. I don’t obsessively diet. I’m no where near as focussed on career progression. I try and live in the “now” more. I’ve got lots of new friends. I have MS.
Doesn’t a lot change in a year?
I do believe living in the “now” is how we should live our lives. This was a great post and I want to thank you for sharing. Crazy question, do you call your grandfather Poppy? I always called both of mine Poppy!
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Noooo…Poppy’s my dog 😍 I’ve heard people call they’re Grandfather Poppy though x
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Oh goodness do I feel like a fool now?! I am sorry, I guess that was my exhausted MS brain typing!
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Haha don’t worry at all 😊 I won’t tell anyone 😉 xx
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Thank you! I promise I normally can think clearly, but it has been a heck of a day!!
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Aww, been a long one? xx
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I went to the grocery store, which I always dread and finished laundry! I find the grocery store very obnoxious. There are always way too many people!!!
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I don’t find that but I really get stressed in the crowds 🙁 sometimes I find it very overwhelming. Today’s a new day! Hope it’s a better one for you xx
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Hope all goes well Joanne xx
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Thinking of you today jo xx your so brave and positive
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Aww thank you xxx
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I am just two days behind you in my own one year on story and reading your blog has been so refreshing. I’ve had so many “me too!” moments as I’ve read and I feel so much better about my one year on being today. Thank you 🙂 keep writing! x
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Aww I’m so happy to be of help to you 🙂 keep smiling xx
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